Progress in running is not something that comes in a straight line. Progress can be slow. Things change marginally. There are ups and there are downs. And when you feel things improve, you need to hold on to those gradual gains.
When you set out to train for an event, regardless of the distance, it is important to recognise that it is not about running the event tomorrow. It is about running the event in two, three or maybe even four or five months time. It can seem that the goal is unattainable, that it is so much further than you have run before, that how can you ever get there?
And then slowly, as you go through the training programme, the distances you run begin to increase or your pace gets quicker, or you get more comfortable running the same distance and progress comes. Patience is key. You are tested and you have doubts, but you can overcome them.
And currently, patience is what I am hanging on to with my recovery from injury. The good news is, so far, I am feeling the benefits of a gradual return to running once more. It is not easy, far from it, but if I keep on this trajectory then I am becoming more optimistic that soon I will be in a much better place than I was a couple of weeks ago.
First of all, let’s focus on the good parts (I did say that there were ups and downs). Last weekend I went back to Aberdeen parkrun at the beach for the first time this year. I went really not knowing how things would go. I had had a couple of gentle runs with my JogScotland group during the week and those had helped, but this would be a bit different. This would be a bit of a push to go a bit faster. It was a struggle but I got through it and my time of just under twenty eight minutes was really quite heartening. I had gone in hoping to do around thirty minutes. So that was the first tick in the box.
Then on Sunday I went out with friends Cara, Susan and Jeanette to attempt a 10k run around the beach area at Aberdeen. This is about as flat a route as you can get in Aberdeen and I felt it would be a good test of extending the distance back to something which, to be frank, I would have taken for granted only a couple of months ago. Again, I got through it, and at a slightly quicker pace than I had hoped for. I am so grateful to have such great running friends who helped me through it. Another tick.
But. On both occasions I was really struggling. My legs felt like lead. My breathing was laboured and I was finding it difficult to hold a conversation during the 10k and I was almost constantly fighting with the voice in my head telling me to stop, to rest, to give it up. Now I know I have to take it as a positive that I did not give in to the voice, but it served as an important reminder of just how hard running is, and how quickly your fitness can fade when you are not regularly getting the miles in. I also need to appreciate that after two months of disruption to my routine, I should just be grateful that I am already back up to 10k distance.
“things will improve”
I never try and sugar coat things about running. It is easy to get in all the slogans about smashing it, about crushing the distance, about knocking it out of the park. but the reality is that running is really, really hard. It truly is. And all of us who run, whether we are doing couch to 5k or running marathons recognise just how tough it is. But it also teaches you a lot about yourself and this is what I am concentrating a lot on just now. I have done this before, things will improve. I just need to have patience.
After my run on Sunday, I did feel a bit of pain in my foot. Not actually in my ankle which I hurt back in December but on the other side of my foot. Now that whole part of your body is filled with lots of tendons and bones and complicated bits so I am sure the whole thing is related, but the good news is that this eased by Tuesday and I was back at JogScotland once more.
Another good thing from this week was that I was running with the club at a very comfortable pace for me and I have combined that with running down and back to the venue where we start and finish. So both nights I have run about a 10k distance, and it is that distance and duration aspect that is also inspiring confidence. This weekend I plan to attempt to go a bit further, perhaps pushing to seven or even eight miles on Sunday. I will see how I feel.
“I am behind the curve”
With six weeks to go to the Inverness half marathon and seven weeks to go to the New York half marathon, I am behind the curve in where I would want to be in my training programme, but that is ok. The knowledge that I have run the distance many times before – both in races and in marathon training – means I know I can get there.
Running breeds resilience. The more I run, the more resilient I will become. And with resilience comes confidence. But before I get the confidence I need to focus, for now, on the patience part. The rest can wait for the moment.