There are times in a training block where you just need to hang on to positives; to find that nugget of hope and inspiration that breeds a bit of faith to carry on. And at times they can be hard to find. With the head down and the focus on each run, there are occasions where it is important to step back and reflect. Looking back can be as rewarding as looking forward.
The big positive for me this week has been that I completed the furthest run of the year so far and in fact the furthest I have run since I completed the Venice Marathon back in October. A chilly start and some frosty, icy roads were the biggest obstacle to getting over the fourteen mile line. So a big tick for that, not just for the distance but also the time I spent on my feet.
Time on feet is something I have always felt was a vital component of long distance running. Just getting your body used to running for two, three, four hours and more is an art in itself. Before I began running, I could not imagine how you could run for an hour to complete a 10k race, far less go for longer than that. And now I recognise the value, in training, of simply spending a long time on your feet. But with that also comes the fact that the reason I am spending more time on my feet is that my long runs are quite slow, in comparison to my previous pace. Now pace is something which is entirely relative. Someone’s fast pace is someone else’s slow pace. This is very much about me.
As a consequence, this is where the doubt creeps in among the positives, and why the positives are so crucial. On the face of it – given where I was only a few weeks ago – I should be over the moon at getting past fourteen miles. A lot of me is very satisfied, thinking “job done, move on”. But part of me is thinking “yes, but…..”.
I am the kind of person who is very self analytical – in both my professional and personal life – so I am always seeking to do better, and when I do not, I beat myself up about it a lot more than I should. So when I got in from the run and saw my pace, I will confess my heart sank a little. It felt a lot harder than the pace would suggest. It would be easy to then focus on that, rather than the simple fact that I did it.
“pause and reflect”
This brings me back to what I mentioned earlier, it is so important a times to pause and reflect, rather than getting caught up in the moment. So as I looked at my mile splits I stopped myself. I could not change anything about the run, and I certainly was not about to go back out and do it again, so I stopped, took a breath, and reminded myself that just over a month ago I was not able to run at all, yet here I was, casually boxing out a run that was greater than a half marathon distance. For many years – through what I now label my “fat period” – the concept of doing something like that would have been so alien as to fry my brain.
So it is up to me to be positive., to take the good things from what I do. Yes, analyse any performance but do not get lost in the weeds of detail. I need to take a look at the bigger picture and the bigger picture is that this run took me past one hundred miles for the month (160km). This run built on my previous long runs and was always going to be a significant step up after running nine miles last weekend, so it is great that I did it at all and that this is a reflection of the progress of a few weeks of solid effort just to even get to this stage.
Work this week intervened and made it more difficult to get out, so I had to swap out my Tuesday evening run for one on Tuesday morning, when the weather was unseasonably mild. It has been quite some time since I ran in just a t-shirt in shorts in late January, but there we were and it was worth it for the lovely sunrise sky.
That run came after a solo five miler last Sunday where I did make a conscious effort to up my pace over the shorter distance and also to mix up my routes a little, just for a bit of variation and attempt to keep things fresh, so I drove a few miles from my house towards the university area of Aberdeen and started and finished my run there. It can be easy to get stale and bored of the same routes, particularly when you run from your house so this is another tactic I am employing to vary the training this time around.
I have also continued my hill reps training with my JogScotland group and I do believe it is making a difference, as hard as it is at the time. Everything adds up in the end.
Training for any race is about preparation. Training for a marathon is an endurance event in itself, with many weeks of gradual buildup and I need to remind myself that this is precisely where I am right now. I am not at the end of the block, in fact I am not even close to the middle yet. Yes, there are many challenging weeks ahead as the mileage builds and builds but that is the point of a training programme. It is not about running a marathon at the start of it, it is all about running a marathon at the end of it.
Therefore, I will reflect on another week of progress. Another week of miles in the legs and hours on the feet. Another week of hill reps building strength. Another week closer to the ultimate goal. Eleven weeks to go.