Last weekend I was out for my long Sunday Run. As I ran up a hill about four miles in to the half marathon distance I was planning, another runner was about one hundred yards ahead. As they reached the crest of the hill, they stopped. And I almost shouted out, “No, don’t stop!! You’ve done it, you’ve got the top, just keep going.” Why stop when you have achieved your aim, why not carry on?
The runner only stopped for about ten or fifteen seconds, and then they carried on with their run, but stopping is something I really try and avoid doing when I am out running, and this is what I want to explore. The reasons why we all sometimes feel the need just to stop. It does not mean we are quitting, but we are just pausing for a bit. Trust me, over the past year, there have been loads of times I have felt like giving up.
Now I think there are lots of reasons to stop when out on a run. Crossing a road, stopping to take pictures if the view is nice, stopping to chat to a friend who you happen to pass by. All of those things I do lots of the time, but what I really try and avoid doing is stopping for the sake of it.
Stopping to do these things is what I would call “conscious stopping”. I am making a decision to stop through my own choice. Stopping because I am struggling is more “unconscious stopping”. What I mean by that is that the reason I am stopping is because I feel I simply cannot go on any more. It is a choice almost being forced upon me. And it is one that I can also choose to overcome.
That does not mean I do not feel like stopping a lot of the time. Oh good god yes. In the first twenty minutes of a run when I am still trying to get over that threshold of feeling like I am dying with every step. When I am tired and getting close to home I sometimes think that I could stop here and then just walk home, or use the distance home for a “warm down”. Or like the runner I saw last weekend, when I get to the top of a hill. But I choose not to.
This is something which only came to me as I became a more experienced runner – trust me I am no expert, very much just a hobby runner – but stopping, particularly when I got to the top of a hill began to really annoy me. I am not annoyed at other people, what I mean is that if I stop I really annoy myself. Because I know that if I just carry on, then I will begin to recover, that my breathing will get back into a rhythm, that the pain in the legs will start to subside, and that the sense of achievement at NOT stopping will act as a positive reinforcement to the effort I am putting in to my training. Just remember how quickly you recover when you finish a run, even one where you feel that you cannot give any more. Your body is an amazing thing.
I felt exactly the same a couple of weeks ago. Long run, about a mile or so to the finish back at my house, struggling a bit with the distance, coming up a hill, which I knew was about to get steeper before I got to the top. And to add to the fun, it was also into the wind. Lots of thoughts ran through my head. Just get to the brow then walk a bit. Just get past this section then stop. It will be ok when I stop.
But I chose not to stop. I slowed down – still running but just a bit slower – and I kept going. I made it up the brow. I made it past the steep bit. Yes, my lungs were burning a bit by that stage and my legs were hurting but I just kept on going. And when I got to the top my thoughts immediately turned to recovring from the effort.
I took deep breaths. I extended my stride a little bit. I just kept going. And within fifty metres or so I began to feel a bit better. My breathing began to calm down but more than that, the sense of achieving at NOT stopping began to kick in. I had beaten the hill. But more than that, I had beaten the nagging doubt in my mind about whether I COULD get up that hill and keep going.
“a sense of how deep I am digging”
I have written many times before that running breeds resilience and I think experience also builds confidence. Knowing that you can get through tough times and come out the other end, only really comes from going through the tough times in the first place. I have had lots of running experiences over the past few years that give me a sense of how deep I am digging to keep going. That realisation that you can pull something out from deep within you that you did not even know that you had.
And that is why I think it is so important to just keep going when you get to the top of the hill. As long as you keep moving is the key part. You will quickly start to recover. You will begin to feel better. You will be able to keep going. All you need to do is convince yourself that you are capable of doing it.
“training your mind to cope”
Your mind has a tendency to give up long before your body does, so training your mind to cope is as important as training your body to get through the challenge you have set yourself. I am not pretending that any of this is easy, I know it is not, but what I want to get across is that if you can believe in yourself, then you can achieve such great things. Things you never believed were possible of yourself.
I saw an old picture of myself this week. One from around six years ago where I was in the background of a picture of some work colleagues at a trade show. A much fatter and unhealthy version of myself. But I remember that time very well and at that time I felt that there was little I could do to change my life. I was in my late forties and I was fat and that was just the lifestyle I led and that was how things were going to be. But I chose a different path and it has led me to where I am now, and I am eternally grateful I did.
There have been many times over the last year or so where I have felt like giving up. Things have been so scary, so crazy, so full of worry that it has been hard not to give in to the overwhelming nature of what we have all faced. But we have all carried on. We have all made that conscious choice to knuckle down, to do our best, to just keep going.
So the next time you think you are going to stop. The next time you reach the crest of that hill. The next time you feel like you cannot go on. Just take another step. Breathe. Then another step. Just. Keep. Going.