Sometimes running can feel like a quest. There is a constant desire to go further, to run faster, to get your heart rate down, to keep pushing yourself ever harder, to challenge yourself in new ways, to compete against others.
It has taken me quite a while to realise it, but in truth, none of that really matters. What matters is that you do your best in the circumstances that face you and you stay happy. Running for me is (or should be) a bit of fun. I very much consider myself to be a hobby runner, and while I want to do well, it is no longer something that I obsess over. That might seem strange coming from someone who, on occasions, runs up to six times a week and has taken on and conquered two marathons, but it is the truth. I hope I am becoming a more relaxed runner.
This has been driven home to me over the course of the last year by running races with friends. Do not misunderstand me, I am amazingly proud of my running achievements, which have totally outstripped any ambition I had when I made the lifestyle choice to lose weight and get fit. But I now see the more significant benefits of not just focusing on my own performance but helping others achieve their own targets.
Last week I was preparing to run the Great Aberdeen Run Half Marathon. As I had written before my preparations have not been ideal so I was going into the race very uncertain about how things would go. Workwise I was in Dublin so I made it out for some short morning runs to keep things ticking over in anticipation of the race itself.
I had arranged to run the race with some people from the JogScotland group that I run with a couple of times a week, with an ambition of getting under two hours, something I have only done once before.
The last couple of weeks had given me some hope that this would be achievable but you really never can tell how things are going to work out until the day of the race itself. When I woke up on Sunday morning to see bright blue skies, not a cloud in sight and temperatures forecast into the mid twenties centigrade, this did give me pause for thought for how things would go. Living in Aberdeen means being used to running in much cooler temperatures.
” Making the right choices about how you pace the race becomes really critical..”
However, you cannot dictate the conditions for raceday, you just need to adapt to them. Last year for this race it was cool and breezy, in Barcelona for my marathon it was warm and sunny. Making the right choices about how you pace the race becomes really critical when facing conditions you are not really used to.
To get under two hours for a half marathon you need to run splits of around nine minutes ten seconds per mile over the course of the race. The course in Aberdeen is very flat to start with, but contains quite a few hills in the latter stages so you need to bank a bit of time in the opening miles to give you a bit of a buffer for later on.
On Sunday, I met up with the group from JogScotland and the friend I was going to run with. We agreed that whatever happened we would run together, irregardless of the time, but we would give it a go. Her previous best time was around two hours and six minutes so we would try and beat that.
“This was too fast.”
The course had changed slightly from last year, so the first mile was almost entirely downhill. Our time for the first mile? Almost bang on eight minutes. There is banking time for the struggles ahead and there is going off too fast. This was too fast. For the next two miles it was a case of just trying to slow down and by the time we go to three miles we were at a good two hour pace.
But as the race continued we were out in the sun for most of it. There were large parts of the course where there was very little shade and the heat took its toll. In fact, it was possibly the hottest day in Aberdeen this year. At various stages we took walking breaks. We always kept moving but my friend was struggling. She kept telling me to carry on without her, but there was no way that I was going to do that.
“It was about adapting to that goal”
I do have goals for my running, but I have already surpassed every goal I ever set myself. My goal at that point was to make sure we helped each other round and made it to the finish line safely. The two hour goal may have gone, but even with the walking breaks we could still beat her previous time, so for me, it was about adapting to that goal. There is always another race.
What also gave us a real boost was seeing people from the running club out on the course to encourage us on. There was one large hill and there was a large group there, cheering us up those painful yards. You cannot imagine the kind of boost that gives you, when you see friends or family when in a race. It was a wonderful moment at a tough time.
“I can now dig pretty deep when I need to,”
The mental side of running is so important to these kind of challenges. Yes it is a physical challenge, of course it is, but your mind will give up long before your body will. The toughest runs I have had have been the ones where I am constantly fighting that inner battle to keep going. Running in the rain, running in the wind, struggling up hills. All of that comes into play when things are tough in a race. I can now dig pretty deep when I need to, knowing that I have come through it before. But that only comes from experience and you cannot buy, nor teach that. I have a lot of faith in my ability to get through the difficult periods of and just keep going; putting one foot in front of the other.
As we came through those hills towards the end and then around and down to the finish line, it was undoubtedly hard going, but we kept going and I did what I could to encourage her along. We jogged, we walked, we ran and then we were in the finish straight. We could see some of our friends from the running club there as well so that spurred us on and we pushed and we pushed and we got over the finish line. The time? Two hours, four minutes and thirty one seconds. Not the time we wanted when we started but the achievement of finishing the race in those kind of conditions is more than enough for me and it was a pleasure to help her beat her time.
It is about facing the challenge. It is about knowing that you can overcome it. It is about taking that confidence and building on it. It is about using that experience to inform you the next time you take on a challenge. In every race I have ever done I have learned something about myself. Sunday was no different. I am no longer obsessing about things that are not really important. I am happy with where I am right now.